CCC 1370: In the Eucharist the Church is as it were at the foot of the cross with Mary, united with the offering and intercession of Christ.

Sometimes, I just flip through the CCC, just mindless and without purpose, but this morning, I found this.  I have heard it before, I am sure but....this morning it hit me hard.  What would I feel like if I was to have been standing there on the that Good Friday, knowing that Jesus was dying for me.  Me, Marc Lackey, a BIG sinner, ( both physically and spiritually), how would my faith be different?  Would all traces of heretical questions be out of my mind?  As humans, I think the smells, sights, and sounds help us form our beliefs, what did it, sounds like on the that Good Friday, smell like, or feel like. I know that are senses make us feel different about events.
I am going to have surgery today, and how I long to be at the foot of the cross beforehand.